I am down with a flu.
For me, this is a struggle. Well, aside from the fact that it is no fun having a fever, runny nose, dizziness and a massive headache, I do not like the idea of being stuck in bed. I am the type of person who is always up with something. My days at work are always hectic, while non-working weekdays entails a lot of moving around such as going to the gym, taking my kids to and from their scheduled activities for the day, playing with them and doing errands. Even when I am waiting for my kids to finish their activities, I tend to be preoccupied either blogging or finishing a good book. I am rarely idle.
Since I am sick, none of my usually activities can be done. Well, I am blogging right now so I guess this aspect of me can not be stopped even by a flu. haha! But half day into this rest mode, I realized that this is not a bad thing. This is probably what my body is begging me to do.. to slow down. When I close my eyes, there are about a hundred or more stuff that I tell myself should be doing, but it is nice that for once, I get to set those aside. It is actually nice to be in bed, and telling myself that I am allowed to stay in and extend my sleep.
I guess the hardest part about being sick is not the idling around but the fact that I am at home, with my son Hendrix, but I can not play with him. He knows I am here and he calls for me but to protect him from catching my flu, I do not go near him. It is tough hearing him but not allowing myself to get close to him for his sake.
I figured this guilt that I am feeling is probably something that moms like us usually feel. It is difficult to slow down but I constantly tell myself, this is something that I need. My rest and recovery will not just be for myself but for my family as well. Have you ever felt this way too? How do you console yourself?