Wow, it has been almost a year since I last posted a blog. Normally, the next line will be “time flies fast”, but not for me. The few months that I have been on blogging hiatus, my family and I are finding ways to make my son better. Since I am no medical practitioner, I will not get into the details of my son’s medical journey here for I may give inaccurate or outdated information. But all I can say is this, the battle that we fought is long and frustrating. There is no one direct medication. There are several options but the effect is on a case to case basis. It can be addressed by just one, or a combination of two or combination of three or more; it is a series of trial and error until you get the right one. Imagine how frustrating that can be. Some were lucky enough to “get it” on the first try, but some takes months, for others, even years. At times I feel helpless and shaken. When you are a parent, the only thing that you want is for your children to be happy and healthy. You will do everything in your power to give them those two. But sometimes we forget that not everything is in our power. And when we lose that power, we feel helpless, insecure and vulnerable. The feeling that we have then can be compared to a person who suddenly walked into a dark alley and he will just have to rely on someone else’s instruction over the phone on how he will get out. That was how the past few months were like for us. Going through that changed us as a family.
In the dark alley that we took, God was our “person on the other line” guiding us on our way out. We did everything that we can, yes, to provide our son with the best health care even to the extent of buying medicine overseas, and at the same time, we kept asking God to guide us as we go through the experience. 4th quarter of last year, we were able to walked out of the dark alley. God showed us the way. It was a breakthrough for our family; another miracle, but not maybe very obvious for others. Our son is cured (for good i hope and pray), and is now making up for lost time and skills. He is catching up and we are giving him his own time to do so. When you are a parent of a child with a colorful medical history, the only thing that will matter to you is that they are healthy. Period. Milestones, skills; they will take a backseat and trust me, you will not be even bothered by it.
And because faith is our major tool during our most trying times as a family, I only see it proper to relaunch my blog on this most important day in our Catholic faith. Easter. Easter symbolizes redemption, new beginnings, hope. I am not going back to blogging because things are all so well and perfect. Like every family, I know that ours will have our series of ups and downs. I am blogging again because I realized that there is so much I can share to other moms like me. And thru your comments i learn as well. I want to inspire others, especially who are going thru the same challenges that we went through.
So here’s to the new Mom Kat’s Notes. I do hope to see your comments on my post soon! Enjoy reading and Happy Easter!